Unrequited Love

It sucks don't it?

Love, I've talked about it so many times, but I never cried over it, ever. I told myself I wasn't going to be one of those girls who would cry over an ex-boyfriend. And I wasn't, but now, I don't know, seeing my situation replayed seems to have unmasked what I felt. Grief and pain and I cried. I'm still crying, shockingly enough, the tears, I don't even try to hide because I know that nothing will happen if I show them. I've even felt pain in my heart recently, it was strange, but I disregarded it, I didn't even remember why I felt the pain, I just knew when and where.

Regret and living like this just isn't going to help anyone.

It never helped me, sulking, I made fun of those would sulked about their boyfriend, I mean there are worse things in the world and that's what I've come to face. I've also come to realize my way of life, everyone has one, you just have to find it and mine was: If it was meant to be...

Of course it would depend on the situation like if it was meant to be... then I would have had it longer then six months. Like my phone, I've had it for a year, can't keep things for longer then a few weeks so I know it's meant to be. Stuff like that... But then there comes another one, if my boyfriend or best friend was meant to be. If someone is there for more then three years, then it's meant to be. I tell my friends constantly I'm only here until they don't need me anymore.

And then I think of Nanny McPhee... no I'm much better then a fictional children's book.

Definately better.

Giving you a face.

I decided to give you guys something to look at instead.

I'm getting more and more lazy by the second so this helps both of us.

But it didn't work.

Bitch...

When the network is down I...

... Uhmm... post?

Yeah, I'm gay, anyways, since I'm the Queen of all people who put stuff off. But I have ten minutes left in this class but I will be able to post again in history... NOT... I lie, actually sometimes I lie so much that I believe the lie I know that's total and complete bull.

So I rededicated my life to Christ... uhmmm awkward much? Yeah awkward situations always happen around me, mainly because I love them so much that I cause them myself.

It's also funny to trick people into thinking you got something or had something last ^.^' Looong story, and I still get flasbacks... today...

Anyways, I really gotta go before my spanish teacher who likes to teach us english notices that the network is down...

I'm not a bad example... infact, I think I'm a pretty good one!

Peace (ho).

Hmm...

I have a paper to write and as I looked around my room for my backpack I suddenly discovered that the stupid part of my brain decided to leave it at school (thinking I had nothing to do.). But that's besides the point because I actually remembered, to look at my email.

And looky here! I actually posted something and someone actually questioned me on it. (October 27, 2007) And no, I didn't know that, the person who emailed me, left a comment. ^.^'

Alot of commas today... and yes, The Beatles will forever stay unless you wanna hack it off, but I don't know anyone that desperate - DON'T GET ANY IDEAS! - you know who you are...

Well apon my amazing discovery (I thought only Chuck Norris could only do that...), that's number one, I decided to post about it twenty minutes after I send it... hehe.

I am not really in the mood to use puncations on the 't's today, so I am typing everything out today. DEAL WITH IT. (ith...) After I'm done remembering the good old days and maybe thinking about MUM.

Loooong story meant for no one else, I'm rambling (HAH! I used it!) with the never ending sentence. Microsoft would sue me if they found out I didn't use the spell check. I don't care today, I just wanna type the day away... not really... I just am bored...

Gotta get those 100 posts in... because I'm a homosexual bitch (LIES).

I'm straight... very straight... so in October, I mentioned said Azerkail, they seemed kind of cryptic (yes I know you can read this) of telling me whether or not he was Azerkail... I don't know anyone who would actually read the seventh (was it ten or eight?) search on google (though it does give me an ego trip...) now I'm gonna search myself...

Heh... sorry if I like to have an ego like my history teacher... (he happens to think he looks sexy) 'There I am, sexy as I am now.' - My history teacher... that was an awkward day.

Oh my god Margarita Sunshine is a song (WTF HE WAS RIGHT!) anyways... let's see what else comes up... At least the first one is the blog... Hah... it tells the point of MarSun.... hahhh...

I'm so not high. Okay I'm done...

The... New Slang?

Messing around in History.. Again... thank Jesusss...Allah? I don't know whoever happens to be on duty up there. Maybe it's that Goddess Mark's always talking about... whatever. Seriously where the hell is my history teacher?

Whatever, not like I'm caring or actually doing work... sooo... what happened today? Uhmm... Dora the Explorer? Yeah weirdest children's show ever, is it an exercise video or something? How many people does it take to spell the word exercise? Apparently two and microsoft work check?

Uhmm... goofing off... not really basically posting something random until mister Blass comes back. How does one spell 'Mrs.'? Like Missus? Or Misses? I think it's the first one but it should be the second one... hmm... whatever... I said that like five times already.

If someone goes back and counts how many whatevers I did actually type I would love and hate them forever, because I knew I was wrong... And PS it's not really 8:13 AM... haha if it was I wouldn't be typing, I'd be sleeping in my parents' kingsized bed with my little sister sleeping on the air matress.

bahhh humbug... WAIT wrong season... gotta go.

PEACES?

Hey Guess What?

I just made a new blog which supports organizations that help better the world like TWLOHA, ALC, and other organizations created to help those who need it.

Le Link:

http://soulmatesoflove.blogspot.com/

Go there check out the one site and read the TWLOHA facts.

Google Brainwashes you.

Today's news consisted of the media replaying Barrack's 'shocking' confession. And of course, the oscars... Aahhh... I must comment on the celebrities commenting about... well nothing really... just commenting.

All they really do is lie, and then they get rewarded for it? Wow, I wish I got a dollar for everytime I lied then I would have a total of 25 dollars... Okay enough sarcasm.

Today I felt strangely compelled to go to google when I really didn't need to actually google was the website I typed subconsciously and when I looked at the webpage I found myself looking at the google webpage and I did not remember it... Hmm... more conspiracies like global warming or... really bad health care.

Somewhere way down south and no I'm not talking about my potential boyfriend this time, protesters decided it'd be cool to fight the power and throw acid at people on a big boat. I'm just saying this probably wasn't the best decision on their part, but in the end they hurt four people. They wanted the boat to smell bad, surprisingly enough, boats already smell horrible so... yeah... not the smartest... people around... Apparently they thought it would be effective to throw acid at people instead of being noble and peaceful like Gandhi or Muhammad Ali... or Bill Clinton.

Apparently a girl decided to burn down her house and then kill her parents to destroy the evidence... I'm sorry but I think she left too little evidence. The reason why she decided to go OJ on her parents was because she thought they wanted her to break up with her boyfriend. Yeah... maybe they had good reason to if she decided to kill them for that, I'm just saying... it's a little crazy like that.

So that's all I care about today or even know actually... This is Margarita Sunshine and that's nice to know.

Haha... I don't know what post this is, but haha.

Today is haha day, and my birthday, yes that is correct, I do happen to remember my birthday. Is in about three or two weeks from now! I can't wait and I might be getting a boyfriend who isn't the people I've been talking about!

Yeah... I'm exciting because I can FINALLY move on to bigger (waaayyy bigger if you know what I mean) and better things.

I'm not perverted... anyways... if anyone asks, whom this person might be I'll bitch slap you because I DONT WANT YOU TO KNOW!

Okay so in recent news the Oscars... Grammys? Tonys? Whatever Oscars have come out... and the people who you wanted to win didn't blah blah blah and I don't care.

Okay so Prince of England decided to go over to Iraq with British troops, yeah apparently when more than two countries are involved that kinda makes it a world war if someone else decided to bomb britian. I mean hey there's plently of Muslims there...

Ooohkay, enough Racism here and there the primarys are still going on, blah, blah, blah stuff I don't care about... But apparently it's a certain Shay Carl's birthday this month, woo! Moving on... Sxephil or the Phillip man who isn't sexy went to the Youtube gathering where you could meet up with other nerds on Youtube like What the Buck and Smosh.

Seriously Smosh I would date.

Bucky? Nawww...

Anyways... besides the fact that superman has finally left the building, this guy named Ben something decided to make fun of Phil during the gathering. Asshole? Yes please Ben or no Ben? No whammy!

Anyways, besides posting this random post about actual news in my own special bitch slapping way, I have to bid you a good-bye and not take notes on anything because I don't have history homework and I'm not going to goof off the entire day away.

I'm Margarita and that's nice to know.