Okay so last blog entry was a bit emotional for me to write to say the least, it's a lot to process over time and it's not my place to tell the world some one's story personally, but today I am going to tell some one's story of love and me basically getting to say, 'screw it!' not in those words personally because he would just kill me if I used those exact words. So before I got on here I was imagining beating up a girl from my school... yeah me too, butterflies right? So anyways I couldn't sleep so I decided, aha! Blog entry in the middle of the night, and hopefully I'll be tired after some hardcore writing. So today's segment is about love and relationships and how Margarita takes some one's love life and doesn't ruin it, but fixes it for the better, you'll see what I mean in a minute. Okay so for these persons' privacy, I am going to call them CM and CC, CM is the guy that came to me and sadly CC is the girl surprisingly, this guys has balls. Yes, you're welcome CM. Obviously MS is going to be me but I mark it later on anyways, and I'm going to have comments (foot notes!) about the comments that come up in the situation will be in red.
So blah, blah, blah, debate project... and then he opens up.
CM: no, I've been working on my debate project.
hey MARGARITA (he used my real name), if I tell you something, I can trust you not to tell ANYONE
MS (me):Really, Chris, who am I going to tell? My imaginary friend, Albert, though on sundays he does need to gossip, nevermind that... yes you can trust me.
Okay so I had to be sarcastic at that point because it's just so much fun! Okay serious Margarita! AHEM.
CM: Okay, I just had to make sure....
I'm not sure how to say this, but I don't think CC and I are right for each other... I didn't think the age difference would bother me
Yes, age difference, their age difference was four years, you're probably like wow LOSER, no seriously not loser... age is a just a number, even though I don't believe that it seems to fit in here. Moving on...
CM:but more and more it is...
I don't mean to put any pressure on you, but any advice? Should I wait and see if I'm just in a phase, or should I talk to her about this?
BIG NO-NO on asking the EX-girlfriend (yes I dated him) your advice on whether or not you should break up with your girlfriend, truth was when this day came I would seriously SAY YES GOD YES, but now that's not fair and I feel differently. Never ask your bitter ex-girlfriend advice on other girls, NEVER, ALWAYS ask a friend whose a girl that you're not too close enough to, to ask your question. Unless you're me, I don't let personal things get in the way. Yeah shut up, and let's move on to my answer.
MS: Was it different? Or was it the same? Did you feel the same way about me, did you love her the same way? Did you feel the same? Was it stronger or looser? Or was it the same. I don't have all the answers, even though sometimes, the psychological answers seem to come to me. (Go me!) It's hard to say. Honestly you shouldn't be talking to me, you should be talking to her about this. But I already know her reaction, because my heart is feeling it now. You have to tell her, but the real question is, when we broke up, like a few minutes before it, did you feel the same way you do now?
The, dun dun dun, did he feel the same way question. Now if he felt the same way... you know the answer, Margarita had this fellow in a chokehold.
CM: When we broke up, I didn't feel this at all. I feel almost empty, and I feel like such a jackass for doing this to her. I'll tell her, and please pray that she takes it well.
YES! THIS GUY HAS BALLS! As soon as he finds out he has a problem, he came to me and that my friends is a guy that has some major testes. Yeah, so besides talking about my ex-boyfriend having sexual reproductive organs (getting it yet? ;-D), he seriously did the right thing by talking to me and then clearing his head to figure out what to do. And now the almighty famous quote from so many movies!
MS: You were in like with her, though you may say you were in love there's a fine line between liking someone intensly and loving someone to an endless extent. When you thought about her, did you see kids? And minivans, and a house or did you see a few weeks from now, the same? Did you imagine yourself proposing? Did you imagine christmas with her family? What about loosing her, if you lost her, right now, would you feel any different? You can't fall out of love, but you can put it out for a while. When you're in love with someone, you want them to hold you, not kiss you. You want them to love you, return their feelings, and three words is what it takes, so many people throw that word around, you only know you're in love when you love them enough to let them go. You love them enough that to see them happy is enough for you, even when it hurts them too. She may have been seriously in love with her, but you have to do some soul searching yourself, how hard did you fall ever? That's who you're supposed to be with, that's the one, but you have to find them first.
Besides, you may be a jackass, but you're still my asshole. (This is my favorite part!)
CM: I have to say it, you should be a psychologist.
BAM, BOOM, SHAMACK, OWNED, PWNED, PAWNED, BOUGHT, SLAUGHTERED AND SKINNED BIOTCHES! Bask in my amazing glow, someone agrees with me!
CM: Everything you said was right, I was in like with her. I never saw minivans nor kids nor proposing. I broke up with her, and now I'm the worlds biggest jackass; she just thanked me for breaking her heart.
MS: Well, what does she expect? Did she want you to lead her on? That would only make her hurt even more, honestly some girls don't have any brains with relationships. Do you want me to talk to her? Cause I seriously will yell at her.
CM: No, I would feel even worse. This is what she just sent to me:
CC: You always made me happy and you were there for me. I don't want it to be over. I seriously don't want it to be over. I loved you and I still do. It's not all of your fault because it's my fault to for not being able to stay on very late. You were my someone who made me happy. You were my someone who was there for me when it counted. I do want to remain friends with you and I don't think I'd ever want to not talk to you again.
Wow, she even makes me feel AND look like a dick.
CM: I don't want to break her heart, but I don't want to lead her on either. I need to know if I do either if I say this:
I'm glad you still want to talk, because I do too. I just feel empty CC, and I know that's not good for a relationship. You've done nothing wrong and none of it is your fault, I promise you. I don't think I can be in a relationship right now, I'm sorry. No blame resides with you CC, and I once again am sorry for this. I know nothing I can say will make up for this, but if I could I would. I am sorry.
and I'm sorry for asking you this MARGARITA SUNSHINE, but I need to know if I'm unintentionally hurting her more.
Wow, BALLING! Seriously, go up a few passages and look at my balls speech, seriously go do it!
MS: At least you're telling the truth, and I know you don't mean to hurt her, but unintentionally yes, you are. But you can't help that either way, just try to be gentle with her and she can still be friends with you, just give her time. With me it was different somehow, I don't know how but it was different.
Because you were in love with me =D, hah, I'm not telling him THAT directly are you kidding me, no way in hell!
CM: You're right, I don't know what was different either. And I'll give her time, hopefully her and I can come out of this friends like you and I are.
Because we're SPED-ical. And now some grasshopper advice.
MS: I guess, just have the patience.
CM: Yea, because I have such great patience
MS: Yup! You can do it!
CM: Thanks MARGARITA SUNSHINE, I owe you for helping with this.
MS: CM, you owe me your life, so when I need a kidney I'm calling you.
And yes, he seriously does because when he had a concussion and didn't even know I stayed up with him for a looooong time telling him to go to bed, but I guess stubbornness is a good thing here! So basicially I gave up and told him he didn't have to go bed, and the next day he was so drugged up he didn't even remember what he said, and oh my reader, he said somethings... sadly, and luckily for him, all that information is lost. I hope you enjoyed this little segment and don't be shy to send in your love, family, or friend problems, I'm always willing to help!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Preciously Lost
At times like these, it made me think how selfish I really am and how selfish other people are. They always complain about how their hair is not set right or that they need to have this certain thing or their life is over. What the hell guys, seriously, what the hell? I know it sounds cliche, but there are people in the world who can't even afford a bed which caused your hair to go out of whack. They don't go to sleep easily, they sleep on the cold hard ground, in the dirt, with the bugs and other diseases. They don't have it as good as we do, they obviously are more grateful then this country, I can assure you that.
Today, after school I found out that my best friend's mom has cancer, she's 36, okay 36 years old. She's so young and yet she has cancer and you know what else is happening to her, she lives off of welfare. She was homeless and her daughter had to live through that, living with four other families, and yet everyone else complains about things they want and not things they need. And when her daughter went to get the clothes, which were free, she had the nerve to say she was fat in them, let me tell you something, this girl is far from being fat, she is so skinny it's unbelievible.
Cancer, her mother has cancer, and all she can think about is how fat she looks, I mean really, take a freaking look away from the mirror and look at someone who needs your help. Someone who doesn't even know the definition of fat, someone who can't even afford food to faten themselves up in the first place. To those who think they're fat when they are skinny, need to get slapped in the face, because they are the selfish ones and need to break that mirror and help someone else realize that they are beautiful.
Now back to cancer, these disease is deadly, it could kill her, and I don't want to face the fact that if she dies, who will my friend have then? Who is going to be her mother? It's not fair, why did someone so good have to die? She's not dead yet, and I'm not saying she's going to die but, why can't someone like a dictator die of cancer? Why can't a rapist die of cancer? Huh? Why is it always the good ones? Personally I think the people who think world leaders should step down, I would like them to take a shot at their job. Because it's not easy either way, we are not talking about a company here, we are talking about 300,000,000 people to take care of. That's a lot of people, and in case you haven't realized it's hard. And you're probably thinking 'well if it's so hard don't do it,' Who cannot do it and then say it's easy? It's not freaking easy, it's not easy at all. Just like cancer, it's not easy, it not fair most of the time. It just makes you think of all those times you spent with that person and how different it's going to be when they're gone.
And the hardest part of this is the fact that I know what's it like almost loosing your mother, I know the feeling, you imagine what it's like without them and realize how horrible life would be because you're not ready to let them go yet. You still need them, I still need my mom, I don't want her to go, and she didn't yet and I'm so thankful for that.
What I'm trying to say is that you need to be grateful for your hair because cancer patients don't have hair, and you need to be grateful for the dinners you have with your parents because when they're gone, they don't come back. And you won't see them again, it's hard to believe that people won't turn away but they will turn away at their weakest moments.
Today, after school I found out that my best friend's mom has cancer, she's 36, okay 36 years old. She's so young and yet she has cancer and you know what else is happening to her, she lives off of welfare. She was homeless and her daughter had to live through that, living with four other families, and yet everyone else complains about things they want and not things they need. And when her daughter went to get the clothes, which were free, she had the nerve to say she was fat in them, let me tell you something, this girl is far from being fat, she is so skinny it's unbelievible.
Cancer, her mother has cancer, and all she can think about is how fat she looks, I mean really, take a freaking look away from the mirror and look at someone who needs your help. Someone who doesn't even know the definition of fat, someone who can't even afford food to faten themselves up in the first place. To those who think they're fat when they are skinny, need to get slapped in the face, because they are the selfish ones and need to break that mirror and help someone else realize that they are beautiful.
Now back to cancer, these disease is deadly, it could kill her, and I don't want to face the fact that if she dies, who will my friend have then? Who is going to be her mother? It's not fair, why did someone so good have to die? She's not dead yet, and I'm not saying she's going to die but, why can't someone like a dictator die of cancer? Why can't a rapist die of cancer? Huh? Why is it always the good ones? Personally I think the people who think world leaders should step down, I would like them to take a shot at their job. Because it's not easy either way, we are not talking about a company here, we are talking about 300,000,000 people to take care of. That's a lot of people, and in case you haven't realized it's hard. And you're probably thinking 'well if it's so hard don't do it,' Who cannot do it and then say it's easy? It's not freaking easy, it's not easy at all. Just like cancer, it's not easy, it not fair most of the time. It just makes you think of all those times you spent with that person and how different it's going to be when they're gone.
And the hardest part of this is the fact that I know what's it like almost loosing your mother, I know the feeling, you imagine what it's like without them and realize how horrible life would be because you're not ready to let them go yet. You still need them, I still need my mom, I don't want her to go, and she didn't yet and I'm so thankful for that.
What I'm trying to say is that you need to be grateful for your hair because cancer patients don't have hair, and you need to be grateful for the dinners you have with your parents because when they're gone, they don't come back. And you won't see them again, it's hard to believe that people won't turn away but they will turn away at their weakest moments.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Emma
"Mourning over life's true purpose is one's only self-centered victory in this creation of skin and embodiment, which creates the illusion of nutrition of the way one person is supposed to live on their only aspiration, can bring only what a person least desires the most in their mortal state, thus the imprisonment of your own self conceives the fear in which one's self loathes because of its pure power in manipulation of the human mind." - MS
This segment is dedicated to those who have fallen along the path and cannot get up.
Emma
Being something you're not comes naturally to most people. Actually most people wouldn't even give themselves a second chance on changing that. Neither would Emma, Emma wouldn't even blink to change her lifestyle of drugs. She was satisfied with just to be addicted to crack and heroine. She doesn't have family, her mother died when she was eight because of overdose. Her father robbed a bank and became a millionaire because of discovering oil. Emma had no knowledge of him nor did she want knowledge of him or of any other relatives. A drug dealer took her in, she became addicted to drug by age twelve. He sometimes got drunk and knocked Emma around, but she was tough and most of the time ended up stabbing him in one of his limbs. Though she was a drug addict, Emma persisted on getting good grades in school, actually the drug dealer did. So, she graduated high school at age seventeen, just a few days shy of her birthday. She did get a scholarship, but it was not enough to pay for an entire intuition, so she declined. Now Emma is nineteen, she moved out of her apartment because the drug dealer who took her in tried to rape her and succeeded. That was not her first time, but Emma was still scarred for life. She disconnected from her friends after graduation, they were using her to get drugs.
Emma was not pale but very tanned, her hair was a deep dark black color and her eyes changed regularly from green to brown to blue to honey. Because she was an addict her weight always was borderline anorexic plus she didn't eat that much. On her arms were tiny little cuts, she cut herself every thursday and saturday afternoon. After the drugs wore off, Emma always fell into depression, and until she got more drugs, she continued to stay depressed. She was truly alone, her drug dealer burnt a picture of her older sister, she left before Emma's mother died. That was the only time Emma cried and she never went out unless it was for drugs or for dancing in the clubs. To Emma, it all seemed fair, the way life was and how it should have been in the first place. In her mind, Emma was vain and cruel to anyone who looked at her in a different way. To Emma life was completely fair and anyone who dared to question her way of life ended up dead. She learned how to shoot a gun at age fifteen. The only difference between her and everyone else was the theory if everything taken away from her, it wouldn't change.
Emma walked down the streets of the city, it was her home or as close as home was going to get.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Margarita Directions
Hmm... well I decided to make fun of those quizzes which ask you your name and then decided what not to do or how to make you. Thus begins an era (or a few minutes) of ranting about how stupid this is blah, blah, blah.
So, my warning label is: IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP MARGARITA SUNSHINE AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.
Aha, you know what I say to that? True, so very, very true, I'm seriously, I'm like a pyro. Oooh and THIS one says I'm an official ice cream flavor. Oh wow... it says that I'm multicultural ice cream, awesome. I'm two-faced, oh damn, that's bad... oh well, don't get me wrong but I can admit that I'm two-faced sometimes... when I have off days. THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE!
How to make a Margarita Sunshine:
Ingredients:
5 parts jealousy
5 parts brilliance
1 part beauty
Method:
Layer ingredientes
in a shot glass.
Serve with a slice of wisdom
and a pinch of salt.
Yum!
hah, if I knew that I was 5 parts jealousy I would say someone is pretty protective of their readers, turn on me and I swear to ALLAH I SHALL SHAMOOK YOU!
Name Achronym... hahahahahaha... let's try!
M-Mischievous - Apparently I am very sneaky sometimes
A-Astounding - Yes, I am mind-blowing
R-Refreshing - Duh, I tell the truth BIOTCH
G-Gentle - er... with babies?
A-Appreciative - HAHAHA NAAAAAW.
R-Rounded - Right... opinions yeah
I-Industrious - What does that mean?
T-Timeless - Yes! I shall live FOREVER AND EVA!
A-Arty - Yes I am very artsie fartsie
S-Spunky - DUH
U-Unforgettable - You shall never forget my never ending rants about Global Warming and insects
N-Nice - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Next question.
S-Shaggy - I'm shag worthy? hmm...
H-Hilarious - Yes, I do believe I'm funny sometimes
I-Industrious - What does that mean?!
N-Nerdy - Duh, I have a blog, of course I'm a nerd.
E-Extreme - Yes, I am.
Okay, okay... A Blogging degree?
hahaha... okay, I'll Bite.
Okay I'm done.
So, my warning label is: IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP MARGARITA SUNSHINE AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.
Aha, you know what I say to that? True, so very, very true, I'm seriously, I'm like a pyro. Oooh and THIS one says I'm an official ice cream flavor. Oh wow... it says that I'm multicultural ice cream, awesome. I'm two-faced, oh damn, that's bad... oh well, don't get me wrong but I can admit that I'm two-faced sometimes... when I have off days. THIS IS MY FAVORITE ONE!
How to make a Margarita Sunshine:
Ingredients:
5 parts jealousy
5 parts brilliance
1 part beauty
Method:
Layer ingredientes
in a shot glass.
Serve with a slice of wisdom
and a pinch of salt.
Yum!
hah, if I knew that I was 5 parts jealousy I would say someone is pretty protective of their readers, turn on me and I swear to ALLAH I SHALL SHAMOOK YOU!
Name Achronym... hahahahahaha... let's try!
M-Mischievous - Apparently I am very sneaky sometimes
A-Astounding - Yes, I am mind-blowing
R-Refreshing - Duh, I tell the truth BIOTCH
G-Gentle - er... with babies?
A-Appreciative - HAHAHA NAAAAAW.
R-Rounded - Right... opinions yeah
I-Industrious - What does that mean?
T-Timeless - Yes! I shall live FOREVER AND EVA!
A-Arty - Yes I am very artsie fartsie
S-Spunky - DUH
U-Unforgettable - You shall never forget my never ending rants about Global Warming and insects
N-Nice - HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Next question.
S-Shaggy - I'm shag worthy? hmm...
H-Hilarious - Yes, I do believe I'm funny sometimes
I-Industrious - What does that mean?!
N-Nerdy - Duh, I have a blog, of course I'm a nerd.
E-Extreme - Yes, I am.
Okay, okay... A Blogging degree?
hahaha... okay, I'll Bite.
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Okay I'm done.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Ahhhh what the heck?
Aparently, I cost a certain amount of money, so yeah...
Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[] Blonde - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Other-$75
Total:$100
Eye Color:(if a mix check both)
[x]Brown - $50
[x] Green - $75
[] Blue $150
[] Hazel $100
[x] Other - $15
Total so far: $240
Height:
[ ] Over 7,, - $200
[ ] 6,,8″ to 7,, - $175
[] 6,,0″ to 6,,7″ - $150
[] 5,,5″ to 5,,11″ - $75
[] 5,,4″ to 5,,10″ - $85
[x] Under 5,,4 - $95
Total so far: $335
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100
Total so far: $435
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[x] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[x] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215
Total so far: $1005
Drink?
[] I did like once - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[] YES - $200
[] only weekends - $300
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[] No - $600
Total so far:$1220
Vision?
[] perfect vision $400
[x] only a little bad $300
[] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[x] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[] Surgical correction -$15
Total so far:$1620
Shoe Size:
[] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[] 11 to 12 - $400
[x] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Under 7- $450
Total so far: $2120
Favorite Colors (two):
[] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[] Black - $100
[] Yellow -$475
[] Brown - $300
[x] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Aqua - $350
[] Orange - $300
[] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100
[] Other - $500
Total:$2945
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes $0
[x] Nope-add $1000
[] some- $750
Final Total: $3945
Aparently I cost the same prices as a freaking camera on apple.com
Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[] Blonde - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Other-$75
Total:$100
Eye Color:(if a mix check both)
[x]Brown - $50
[x] Green - $75
[] Blue $150
[] Hazel $100
[x] Other - $15
Total so far: $240
Height:
[ ] Over 7,, - $200
[ ] 6,,8″ to 7,, - $175
[] 6,,0″ to 6,,7″ - $150
[] 5,,5″ to 5,,11″ - $75
[] 5,,4″ to 5,,10″ - $85
[x] Under 5,,4 - $95
Total so far: $335
Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $175
[ ] 46 to 50 - $150
[ ] 41 to 45 - $125
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100
Total so far: $435
Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $750
[x] First Born - $320
[ ] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[x] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $100
[ ] third born - $550
[ ] fourth born - $300
[ ] fifth born - $400
[ ] sixth born -$215
Total so far: $1005
Drink?
[] I did like once - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[x] Sometimes - $215
[] YES - $200
[] only weekends - $300
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[] No - $600
Total so far:$1220
Vision?
[] perfect vision $400
[x] only a little bad $300
[] need or have glasses/ contacts but dont wear them $200
[x] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] contacts $25
[] Surgical correction -$15
Total so far:$1620
Shoe Size:
[] 13+ - $300
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[] 11 to 12 - $400
[x] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Under 7- $450
Total so far: $2120
Favorite Colors (two):
[] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[] Black - $100
[] Yellow -$475
[] Brown - $300
[x] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Aqua - $350
[] Orange - $300
[] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100
[] Other - $500
Total:$2945
Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] Yes $0
[x] Nope-add $1000
[] some- $750
Final Total: $3945
Aparently I cost the same prices as a freaking camera on apple.com
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Keep On Going
Lately I've noticed that people seriously suck, I mean come on, they really do suck. Everyone sucks, or they have that sucky moment in their life, thus making them suckish. Which means everything that person has, and will make contact with made everything suck, therefore - everything sucks. Ha, it's not like I haven't figured this out before, I'm pretty sure everyone has figured this out before. And everyone is the same, despite what YOU may think, you are just like your neighbor. They have the same desire to find love (no matter what situation), the same desire to have lots of money, and the same desire to find theirselves. Sound familiar?
Why do you think I can read your minds most of the time, you're probably think, yeah sure... but aha! I got you right there, people are predictable, everyone is predictable. You can tell where someone is going to end up with just looking at their grades, medical reports. Anything, the clothes they wear, yes that infamous saying 'looks can be deceiving'. That's true at first, but in the end, how do they act? The way you wanted them to act, now I must tell you if you're right about one thing, you shouldn't try to test fate and do it again. Be warned because altering with was is supposed to happen and what is not even close can really bite you back. Like karma, Vishnu and Brahma, what goes around comes around and the last two are just Hindu Gods... did you know they have thousands of Gods for everything. Wouldn't it be weird not knowing your entire religion? I just don't think I could do that everyday, unknowing, not knowing something you should, it just doesn't make sense?
And I know some people don't believe parts of the bible, but you can't just choose to believe part and not the other and that's just in general! Everyone is so cynical of things, why can't they just accept it as the truth and leave it as that? No, they have to make it much more complicated, they have to have the attention, that aparently they are deprived of at home! If you have a bunch of money, do not, for the love of God, DON'T complain about your life! So what if your parents don't pay attention to you? Tell them that, rather then craving the attention from your tired friends. Have you ever thought the friend you were whining to? Did you ever once consider their feelings over yours? No, you haven't because this world is sick and people are so self-absorbant that they can only think of themselves.
Ever notice that this is what the media has on ALL DAY LONG? Idealising celebrities, telling girls that they need to be a certain size to be beautiful and saying if you don't have perfect breasts and the right height, you can't get anywhere in life. Whatever happened to morals? Where did they go?
Why do you think I can read your minds most of the time, you're probably think, yeah sure... but aha! I got you right there, people are predictable, everyone is predictable. You can tell where someone is going to end up with just looking at their grades, medical reports. Anything, the clothes they wear, yes that infamous saying 'looks can be deceiving'. That's true at first, but in the end, how do they act? The way you wanted them to act, now I must tell you if you're right about one thing, you shouldn't try to test fate and do it again. Be warned because altering with was is supposed to happen and what is not even close can really bite you back. Like karma, Vishnu and Brahma, what goes around comes around and the last two are just Hindu Gods... did you know they have thousands of Gods for everything. Wouldn't it be weird not knowing your entire religion? I just don't think I could do that everyday, unknowing, not knowing something you should, it just doesn't make sense?
And I know some people don't believe parts of the bible, but you can't just choose to believe part and not the other and that's just in general! Everyone is so cynical of things, why can't they just accept it as the truth and leave it as that? No, they have to make it much more complicated, they have to have the attention, that aparently they are deprived of at home! If you have a bunch of money, do not, for the love of God, DON'T complain about your life! So what if your parents don't pay attention to you? Tell them that, rather then craving the attention from your tired friends. Have you ever thought the friend you were whining to? Did you ever once consider their feelings over yours? No, you haven't because this world is sick and people are so self-absorbant that they can only think of themselves.
Ever notice that this is what the media has on ALL DAY LONG? Idealising celebrities, telling girls that they need to be a certain size to be beautiful and saying if you don't have perfect breasts and the right height, you can't get anywhere in life. Whatever happened to morals? Where did they go?
Thursday, November 8, 2007
I Broke My Own
Another song, yeah I know I'm gay, but the inspiration for this song came from me, last night after I drank and took a drag, I sat on the toliet the next morning and thought of the title and realized I needed to express this feeling right now.
I was thinking, last night,
Every single hour, it wasn't right.
I didn't know what I was doing,
but I think ruined, my life.
I saw you last night
And you were as beautiful as ever,
But I would never, let you see me.
I took a drag, I took a drink,
then I stole kiss or two,
But I know, what I broke.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I broke my own soul,
I think I drove you away from me,
And I didn't even know.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I killed my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even realize it.
Before I even met you,
You seemed draw me to you,
My heart was pure,
My soul was real,
This life was true,
But then you came along
And sure enough, you gave away,
All of my dreams today.
I took a drag, I took a drink,
then I stole kiss or two,
But I know, what I broke.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I broke my own soul,
I think I drove you away from me,
And I didn't even know.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I killed my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even realize it.
I sat down in the bathroom,
And then I wrote this song,
And thought all about you,
Then I figured I was wrong.
You didn't notice, how hard I tried.
Then I realized, you weren't the one,
And acceptance is the cure,
If you didn't know before.
I took my heart, I took my soul,
And then let the events unfold,
And even if you didn't want to know.
I broke my heart,
I broke my soul,
Then I drove you away,
And didn't even know it.
I broke my heart,
Then murdered my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even know it.
Last night.
I was thinking, last night,
Every single hour, it wasn't right.
I didn't know what I was doing,
but I think ruined, my life.
I saw you last night
And you were as beautiful as ever,
But I would never, let you see me.
I took a drag, I took a drink,
then I stole kiss or two,
But I know, what I broke.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I broke my own soul,
I think I drove you away from me,
And I didn't even know.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I killed my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even realize it.
Before I even met you,
You seemed draw me to you,
My heart was pure,
My soul was real,
This life was true,
But then you came along
And sure enough, you gave away,
All of my dreams today.
I took a drag, I took a drink,
then I stole kiss or two,
But I know, what I broke.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I broke my own soul,
I think I drove you away from me,
And I didn't even know.
I think I broke my own heart,
I think I killed my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even realize it.
I sat down in the bathroom,
And then I wrote this song,
And thought all about you,
Then I figured I was wrong.
You didn't notice, how hard I tried.
Then I realized, you weren't the one,
And acceptance is the cure,
If you didn't know before.
I took my heart, I took my soul,
And then let the events unfold,
And even if you didn't want to know.
I broke my heart,
I broke my soul,
Then I drove you away,
And didn't even know it.
I broke my heart,
Then murdered my soul,
And most of all I drove you away,
And I didn't even know it.
Last night.
Monday, November 5, 2007
What I've learned
My dear fellow blogger, tomorrow is election day. And since I can't vote yet I shall put my two cents in about politics. I love Bush, the end. Nuff said, but really when you hear about those conspiracy theories, what is going on in your head? If you really knew how the government worked you wouldn't think that Bush is planning a terrorist attack THIS YEAR because soldiers take an oath stating that they promise not to bare arms against the American people. And if he was, I'm sure someone in congress has a conscious to stand up and say that it's wrong. So if you think that George Bush is going to be the president for the rest of your life, you honestly do not know George Bush. And you honestly do not know the government enough.
So before you start pointing fingers at random political figures of influence, make sure your story sound straight. And if you're trying to prove that your evidence is on the INTERNET, you seriously have issues because since when is the internet completely true? This is the same place that has the Chuck Norris Facts Engine. Yes, I know, his tears cure cancer, too bad he doesn't cry. And if I get e-mails (bethany_mack@hotmail.com) that say 'praise the Norris' I'm going to hunt you down and stab you, a lot. But when I stab you, remember it's with love.
Sometimes...
So anyways, I'm writing again! Yay I'm officially off my two (one) week leaving period, and yes, it's because I love you all that much. And because I really want fifty posts by the end of the year, yeah that's not gonna happen. But hey, there's a New Year's resolution to fit in too, right? And yes, I have finally fallen out of love from the dude, his name is dude and shall forever remain dude until further notice. I love you all though, because your support, which was somewhat surprising, made me keep righting. And I want to tell you how the counter thingy works, that's the amount of views per DAY, yeah I cheated and made it that way. I love codes, and gaiaonline.
Seriously, go to that site, no I'm just kidding, we don't need more people. Myspace needs to lose a couple 500 million people, I can't wait until it reaches one billion members I seriously am going to bash myspace that day. I've had a Myspace for three years now (yes I was twelve) but hey, I only had one picture that I post on that until I turned fourteen. And my Aunt just came in randomly... that was weird but hey family is awesome and I love them. My family is weird, very weird, you think you have met weird, no you haven't. My Aunt used to come to my house and watch King of Queens with me and my dad but now she doesn't because the show ended. But she still comes over randomly in the summer and winter and fall and not spring for some odd reason but everything else she does.
My family is that back away slowly and runaway laughing weird, the dictionary weird, we all act the same, have the same loudness to our voices (especially my cousin) and the same personalities. Except for me, I act more like my mom's side rather then my dad's side but at least I get to learn things from both sides right? I mean my mother's side sends me to Florida every year and my dad's side saved me. But my grandmother saves me too because she's.. a crazy... yeah I've had my share of crazy people considering my family.
But severly crazy family like 'I'm gonna eat you' famliy not really, so this blog post doesn't have a theme, but I guess purposes for thing happen and I'm not deleting all of this just so one person is happy, I'm posting this because I'm happy. My family makes me happy, and yes I am going to post some Women's History on the blog because I have a research project and decided to post something on here so everyone knows what women did in the 1700s to the 1800s. Surprisingly they did a lot more then what you think they did, they ran the households most of the time but now I must depart I'll post more this week when I have time (or I'm just bored). I'm sure I will be sometime this week.
So before you start pointing fingers at random political figures of influence, make sure your story sound straight. And if you're trying to prove that your evidence is on the INTERNET, you seriously have issues because since when is the internet completely true? This is the same place that has the Chuck Norris Facts Engine. Yes, I know, his tears cure cancer, too bad he doesn't cry. And if I get e-mails (bethany_mack@hotmail.com) that say 'praise the Norris' I'm going to hunt you down and stab you, a lot. But when I stab you, remember it's with love.
Sometimes...
So anyways, I'm writing again! Yay I'm officially off my two (one) week leaving period, and yes, it's because I love you all that much. And because I really want fifty posts by the end of the year, yeah that's not gonna happen. But hey, there's a New Year's resolution to fit in too, right? And yes, I have finally fallen out of love from the dude, his name is dude and shall forever remain dude until further notice. I love you all though, because your support, which was somewhat surprising, made me keep righting. And I want to tell you how the counter thingy works, that's the amount of views per DAY, yeah I cheated and made it that way. I love codes, and gaiaonline.
Seriously, go to that site, no I'm just kidding, we don't need more people. Myspace needs to lose a couple 500 million people, I can't wait until it reaches one billion members I seriously am going to bash myspace that day. I've had a Myspace for three years now (yes I was twelve) but hey, I only had one picture that I post on that until I turned fourteen. And my Aunt just came in randomly... that was weird but hey family is awesome and I love them. My family is weird, very weird, you think you have met weird, no you haven't. My Aunt used to come to my house and watch King of Queens with me and my dad but now she doesn't because the show ended. But she still comes over randomly in the summer and winter and fall and not spring for some odd reason but everything else she does.
My family is that back away slowly and runaway laughing weird, the dictionary weird, we all act the same, have the same loudness to our voices (especially my cousin) and the same personalities. Except for me, I act more like my mom's side rather then my dad's side but at least I get to learn things from both sides right? I mean my mother's side sends me to Florida every year and my dad's side saved me. But my grandmother saves me too because she's.. a crazy... yeah I've had my share of crazy people considering my family.
But severly crazy family like 'I'm gonna eat you' famliy not really, so this blog post doesn't have a theme, but I guess purposes for thing happen and I'm not deleting all of this just so one person is happy, I'm posting this because I'm happy. My family makes me happy, and yes I am going to post some Women's History on the blog because I have a research project and decided to post something on here so everyone knows what women did in the 1700s to the 1800s. Surprisingly they did a lot more then what you think they did, they ran the households most of the time but now I must depart I'll post more this week when I have time (or I'm just bored). I'm sure I will be sometime this week.
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