After Another

Yup, I told you so, one right after another! Do chickens fly? Yes, on occassion they do. So, today's segment is, stupid questions and even stupider answers! And some smart ones are in there too. Yay. There is no color coding due to lack of peppiness and highness of laziness.

Is MOBY DICK really the greatest piece of American history?
No, it's a matter of opinion, personally I have not even gotten to the tenth chapter, let alone the middle of the book, but I will tell you if it is a good book or not.

Not... Why is green, green?
Green is green because green is green.

Do you like pie?
Do I like pie?

What does the word Azerkail mean to you?
A lot of memories.

What is a plank length?
FOR GOODNESS SAKE I AM LOOKING THIS UP ONCE AND FOR ALL!
The Planck length, denoted by , is the unit of length approximately 1.6 × 10−35 metres, 6.3 × 10-34 inches, or about 10-20 times the diameter of a proton. It is in the system of units known as Planck units. The Planck length is deemed "natural" because it can be defined from three fundamental physical constants: the speed of light, Planck's constant, and the gravitational constant.
The physical significance of the Planck length is unclear. Because it is the only length (up to a constant factor) obtainable from the constants G, h, and c, it is expected to play some role in a theory of quantum gravity. In some forms of quantum gravity, it is the length scale at which the structure of spacetime becomes dominated by quantum effects, giving it a discrete or foamy structure. In other forms of quantum gravity there are no such effects. If there are large extra dimensions, the measured strength of gravity may be much smaller than its true (small-scale) value; in this case the Planck length would have no physical significance, and quantum gravitational effects would appear at much larger scales.
TAKE THAT BIOTCH!

Do you like the color orange?
Do I love tomatoes? No.

What is a Turkey Hawk?
A turkey and a hawk decided to mate thus the turkey hawk!

Apple Pie?
WTF this isn't a freaking question!

Do you own a phone?
No, I live in amish country.

Do you live in amish country?
Yes, yes I do, which is why I have a computer and a TV and go to public school.

I love you.
I love you too, now next question.

Do you like ice cream?
Yes, now I'm going to get some.

Okay guys I really want to look up stuff, so I did.

Look up a famous actor you hate's favorite food.
MUAHAHA This one actually came from another blog on blogspot.com!
Tom Cruise's Favorite Food: Tom Cruise flew three of his favorite Italian chefs half way accross the world just to cook for his birthday last week. The "chefs" are from restaurant Dal Bolognese in Rome, Italy. Apparently Tom Cruise likes Italian food.

Look up All the different shades of Orange.
I hate this person but I did anyway!
Yeah didn't find anything (thank GOD)

Moving on... Look up all of the fruits of the world.
I hate this person even more.
But I did it anyway!
All the fruits of the World sorted:
Rosaceae family
Apple and crabapple (Malus)
Chokeberry (Aronia)
Hawthorn (Crataegus and Rhaphiolepis)
Loquat (Eryobotrya japonica)
Medlar (Mespilus germanica)
Pear, European and Asian species (Pyrus)
Quince (Cydonia oblonga and Chaenomeles)
Rose hip, the fruitlike base of roses (Rosa); used mostly for jams and herbal tea
Rowan (Sorbus)
Service tree (Sorbus domestica), bears a fruit known as a sorb or sorb apple
Serviceberry or Saskatoon (Amelanchier)
Shipova (× Sorbopyrus auricularis)
The stone fruits, drupes of genus Prunus:
Apricot (Prunus armeniaca or Armeniaca vulgaris)
Cherry sweet, black, sour, and wild species (Prunus avium, Prunus serotina, P. cerasus, and others)
Chokecherry (Prunus virginiana)
Greengage, a cultivar of the plum
Hybrids of the preceding species, such as the pluot, aprium and peacotum
Peach (of the normal and white variety) and its variant the nectarine (Prunus persica)
Plum, of which there are several domestic and wild species; dried plums are called prunes
Berries
Blackberry, of which there are many species and hybrids, such as dewberry, boysenberry, olallieberry and loganberry (genus Rubus)
Cloudberry (Rubus chamaemorus)
Loganberry (Rubus loganobaccus)
Raspberry, several species (genus Rubus)
Salmonberry (Rubus spectabilis)
Thimbleberry (Rubus parviflorus)
Wineberry (Rubus phoenicolasius)
The true berries are dominated by the family Ericaceae, many of which are hardy in the subarctic:
Bearberry (Arctostaphylos spp.)
Bilberry or whortleberry (Vaccinium spp.)
Blueberry (Vaccinium spp.)
Crowberry (Empetrum spp.)
Cranberry (Vaccinium spp.)
Huckleberry (Vaccinium spp.)
Lingonberry (Vaccinium vitis-idaea)
Strawberry Tree (Arbutus unedo), not to be confused with the Strawberry (Fragaria)
Other berries not in the Rosaceae or Ericaceae:
Açaí (Euterpe), a palm fruit native to the Amazon region
Barberry (Berberis; Berberidaceae)
Currant (Ribes spp.; Grossulariaceae), red, black, and white types
Elderberry (Sambucus; Caprifoliaceae)
Gooseberry (Ribes spp.; Grossulariaceae)
Hackberry (Celtis spp.; Cannabaceae)
Honeysuckle: the berries of some species (called honeyberries) are edible, others are poisonous (Lonicera spp.; Caprifoliaceae)
Mulberry (Morus spp.; Moraceae)
Mayapple (Podophyllum spp.; Berberidaceae)
Nannyberry or sheepberry (Viburnum spp.; Caprifoliaceae)
Oregon grape (Mahonia aquifolium; Berberidaceae)
Sea-buckthorn (Hippophae rhamnoides; Elaeagnaceae)
Sea Grape (Coccoloba uvifera; Polygonaceae)
Wolfberry (Lycium barbarum, Lycium spp.; Solanaceae)
Aisan fruit
Arhat (Siraitia grosvenorii; Cucurbitaceae) Also called longevity fruit
Che (Cudrania tricuspidata; Moraceae) Also called Cudrania, Chinese Mulberry, Cudrang, Mandarin Melon Berry, Silkworm Thorn, zhe
Durian
Goumi (Elaeagnus multiflora ovata; Elaeagnaceae)
Hardy Kiwi (Actinidia arguta)
Kiwifruit or Chinese gooseberry (Actinidia spp.; Actinidiaceae)
Lapsi (Choerospondias axillaris Roxb.)
Nungu
Persimmon (aka Sharon Fruit) (Diospyros kaki; Ebenaceae)
Rhubarb (Rheum rhaponticum; Polygonaceae)
Sageretia (Sageretia theezans; Rhamnaceae) Also called Mock Buckthorn
Cacti
Cardón (Pachycereus pringlei; Cactaceae)
Dragonfruit (Hylocereus undatus; Cactaceae), also called pitaya
Prickly pear (Opuntia spp.; Cactaceae)
Saguaro (Carnegiea gigantea; Cactaceae)
Podocarps
Kahikatea (Dacrycarpus dacrydioides)
Manoao (Manoao colensoi)
Nageia (Nageia spp.)
Podocarpus (Podocarpus spp.)
Prumnopitys (Prumnopitys spp.)
Rimu (Dacrydium cupressinum)
Melons
Gourds, including, but not limited to:
Butternut squash (Cucurbita moschata)
Cushaw squash (Cucurbita mixta)
Hubbard squash, Buttercup squash (Cucurbita maxima)
Pumpkin, Acorn squash, Zucchini, Summer squash (Cucurbita pepovarieties)
Horned melon (Cucumis metuliferus)
Melon (Cucumis melo): cantaloupe, galia, and other muskmelons, honeydew
Accessory fruits
The accessory fruits, seed organs which are not botanically berries at all::
Raisin tree (Hovenia dulcis, Rhamnaceae) Also called Japanese Raisin Tree
Strawberry (Fragaria spp.; Rosaceae)
Fruits in this category are not hardy to extreme cold, as the preceding temperate fruits are, yet tolerate some frost and may have a modest chilling requirement. Notable among these are natives of the Mediterranean:
Grapes
Black mulberry (Morus nigra; Moraceae)
Cornelian cherry (Cornus mas; Cornaceae)
Date palm (Phoenix dactylifera; Arecaceae)
Fig (Ficus spp. Moraceae)
Grape, called raisin, sultana, or currant when it is dried. (Vitis spp.; Vitaceae)
Jujube (Ziziphus zizyphus; Rhamnaceae)
Olive (Olea europea; Oleaceae)
Pomegranate (Punica granatum; Punicaceae)
Sycamore fig (Ficus sycomorus. Moraceae) also called old world sycomore or just sycomore.
In the important genus Citrus (Rutaceae), some members are tropical, tolerating no frost. All common species of commerce are somewhat hardy:
Lemon
Citron (Citrus medica)
Clementine (Citrus reticulata var. Clementine),
Grapefruit (Citrus paradisi)
Hybrids of the preceding species, such as the Orangelo, Tangelo, Rangpur and Ugli fruit
Kumquat (Fortunella)
Lemon (Citrus limon)
Limes
Key Lime (Citrus aurantifolia)
Persian lime Also known as tahiti lime.
Kaffir lime (Citrus hystix)
Mandarin (Citrus reticulata),
Orange, of which there are sweet (Citrus sinensis) and sour (Citrus aurantium) species
Pomelo (also known as the shaddock) (Citrus maxima)
Sweet Lemon (Citrus limetta)
Tangerine, and similar
See also: List of Citrus fruits
Other subtropical fruits:
Avocado (Persea americana; Lauraceae)
Carob (Ceratonia siliqua; Fabaceae)
Feijoa (Feijoa sellowiana; Myrtaceae)
Guava (Psidium guajava; Myrtaceae)
Kumquat (Fortunella spp.; Rutaceae)
Longan (Euphoria longan; Sapindaceae)
Lúcuma (Pouteria lucuma; Sapotaceae)
Lychee (Litchi chinensis; Sapindaceae)
Passion fruit or Grenadilla (Passiflora edulis and other Passiflora spp.; Passifloraceae) Galendar in some part of east India (Darjeeling)
Peanut (Arachis hypogaea; Fabaceae)
Pond-apple (Annona glabra; Annonaceae) Also called Alligator-apple and Monkey-apple
Strawberry guava (Psidium litorale; Myrtaceae)
Tamarillo or Tree Tomato (Cyphomandra betacea; Solanaceae)
Ugni (Ugni molinae; Myrtaceae)
Yangmei (Myrica rubra; Myricaceae) Also called Yamamomo, Chinese Bayberry, Japanese Bayberry, Red Bayberry, or Chinese strawberry tree

Acerola (Malpighia glabra; Malpighiaceae), also called West Indian Cherry or Barbados Cherry
Ackee (Blighia sapida or Cupania sapida; Sapindaceae)
African cherry orange (Citropsis schweinfurthii; Rutaceae)
Amazon Grape (Pourouma cecropiaefolia;Moraceae)
Araza
Avocado
Açaí (Euterpe oleracea; Arecaceae), or assai
Babaco (Carica pentagona; Caricaceae)
Bael (Aegle marmelos; Rutaceae)
Banana (Musacea spp.; Musaceae); its starchy variant is the plantain
Barbadine (granadilla; maracujá-açu in Portuguese)
Barbados Cherry (Malpighia glabra L.; Malpighiaceae), also called Acerola, West Indian Cherry
Betel Nut
Bilimbi (Averrhoa bilimbi; Oxalidaceae) Also called cucumber tree or tree sorrel
Biriba
Bitter gourd
Black sapote
Bottle gourd
Brazil nut
Breadfruit (Artocarpus altilis; Moraceae)
Burmese grape (Baccaurea sapida; Cucurbitaceae)
Calabash (Lagenaria siceraria; Bignoniaceae)
Calabashtree
CamuCamu (Myrciaria dubia; Myrtaceae)
Canistel
Cape gooseberry
Carambola (Averrhoa carambola; Oxalidaceae), also called star fruit or five fingers
Cashew
Cempedak or Champedak (Artocarpus champeden; Moraceae)
Ceylon gooseberry
Chenet (guinep or ackee; pitomba-das-Guinas in Portuguese)
Cherimoya (Annona cherimola; Annonaceae)
Chili
Caimito (caimite; related to the yellow abiu - egg fruit)
Cacao
Coconut (Cocos spp.; Arecaceae)
Coffee
Cupuaçu
Custard apple (Annona reticulata; Annonaceae), also called Bullock's Heart
Damson plum (Chrysophyllum oliviforme; Sapotaceae), also called Satin Leaf
Date
Date-plum (Diospyros lotus; Ebenaceae)
Dragonfruit (Hylocereus spp.; Cactaceae), also called pitaya
Durian (Durio spp.; Bombacaceae)
Eggfruit (Pouteria campechiana; Sapotaceae), also called canistel or yellow sapote
Elephant apple (Dillenia indica; Dilleniaceae)
Giant granadilla
Golden Apple
Guarana (Paullinia cupana; Sapindaceae)
Guava
Guavaberry or Rumberry; (Myrciaria floribunda; Myrtaceae)
Hog plum (taperebá in Portuguese)
Horned melon (Cucumis metuliferus; Cucurbitaceae)
Huito (Genipa americana; Rubiaceae); also called jagua, genipap, jenipapo
Indian almond
Indian fig
Indian jujube
Indian Prune (Flacourtia rukan; Flacourtiaceae)
Jaboticaba (Myrciaria cauliflora; Myrtaceae), also called Brazilian Grape Tree
Jackfruit (Artocarpus heterophyllus Moraceae), also called nangka
Jambul (Syzygium cumini; Myrtaceae)
Jatobá (Hymenae coubaril; Leguminosae) Caesalpinioideae)
Jocote, also called Jamaica Plum
Kandis (Garcinia forbesii; Clusiaceae)
Keppel fruit (Stelechocarpus burakol; Annonaceae)
Kumquat
Kundong (Garcinia sp.; Clusiaceae)
Lablab
Langsat (Lansium domesticum), also called longkong or duku
Lansones (Lansium domesticum spp.; Meliaceae)
Lemon
Leucaena
Lime
Longan
Loquat
Lucuma
Lychee
Mabolo (Diospyros discolor; Ebenaceae) also known as a velvet persimmon
Macadamia
Mamey sapote (Pouteria sapota; Sapotaceae); also known as mamee apple; abricó in Portuguese Tropical Fruits
Mamoncillo (Melicoccus bijugatus; Sapindaceae), also known as quenepa, genip or Fijian Longan
Mandarin
Manila tamarind (or Monkeypod, Pithecellobium dulce)
Mango (Mangifera indica; Anacardiaceae)
Mangosteen (Garcinia mangostana; Clusiaceae)
Marang (Artocarpus odoratissima; Moraceae), a breadfruit relative
Melinjo
Melon pear
Monstera (Monstera deliciosa; Araceae) also called Swiss Cheese Plant, Split-leaf Philodendron
Morinda
Mountain soursop
Mundu
Mung bean
Muskmelon
Nance
Naranjilla, Lulo (Solanum quitoense; Solanaceae)
Nutmeg
Neem
Oil Palm
Okra
Papaya (Carica papaya; Caricaceae)
Peach palm
Peanut butter fruit (Bunchosia argentea; Malpighiaceae)
Pequi or Souari Nut (Caryocar brasiliense; Caryocaraceae)
Pewa (peach palm; pupunha in Portuguese)
Pigeon pea
Pili nut
Pineapple (Ananas comosus or Ananas sativas; Bromeliaceae)
Pitomba (Eugenia luschnathiana or Talisia esculenta)
Plantain
Poha or Cape Gooseberry (Physalis peruviana; Solanaceae)
Pois doux (Inga edulis, ice-cream bean, or inga-cipó in Portuguese)
Poisonleaf (Dichapetalum cymosum) (?)
Pommecythère or pomcité (Spondias cytherea); also known as golden apple, June plum or Jew plum and ambarella, and as cajamanga in Portuguese
Pommerac (Eugenia malaccensis); also known as Otaheite apple; Malay apple; jambo in Portuguese
Pummelo
Pupunha or peach-palm (Bactris gasipaes; Palmae); also known as pewa
Queensland nut
Rambutan (Nephelium lappaceum; Sapindaceae)
Red Mombin (Spondias purpurea; Anacardiaceae)
Riberry (Syzygium luehmannii; Myrtaceae), also called Lilly Pilly, Lillipilli, Chinese Apple
Ridged gourd
Salak (Salacca edulis), also called snakefruit
Santol (Sandoricum koetjape; Meliaceae)
Sapodilla (Achras/Manilkara zapota; Sapotaceae), also called chiku, mespel, naseberry, sapadilla, snake fruit, sawo
Sea grape
Soncoya
Soursop (Annona muricata; Annonaceae), also called guanabana
Soybean
Star apple (Chrysophyllum cainito), also called caimito or caimite
Strawberry guava
Strawberry pear
Sugar apple (Annona squamosa; Annonaceae); ata in Portuguese
Summer squash
Surinam Cherry (Eugenia uniflora; Myrtaceae) also called Brazilian Cherry, Cayenne Cherry, Pitanga
Sweet granadilla
Sweet orange
Sweet pepper
Sweetsop
Rose apple (Syzygium jambos; Myrtaceae), also called Malay apple
Tamarind (Tamarindus indica; Caesalpiniaceae)
Vanilla
Water apple
Watermelon
Wax apple (Syzygium samarangense)
Wax gourd
White sapote
Winged bean
Unsorted
Chocolate vine (Akebia quinata)
Elaeagnus angustifolia (Russian olive)
Garden Peach Tomato
Ice Plant (Carpobrotus edulis; Aizoaceae)
Sythus Fagus (Sythe)
Taxus baccata (Yew) sweet red fruit with a highly toxic seed.

Okay, that's enough looking up for one day, that took me like a half an hour! I love you and hope you earned some intelligence. I'll post later on tonight!

Yeah... so I lied.

Hey! I'm only human! Well... within the next hour or so I shall post as amazing amount of blogs with a bizillion different topics for you to enjoy. I appologise sincerely, (see I told you this would amuse you) anyways, I am very sorry because I have been busy lately and haven't had time, or the patient to reach the computer. But now I do and all night long I shall post and post and post until my heart's content. So... what's been up with Margarita lately? Well the evil encarnated Spanish teacher got fired but she beat them to the punch and quit. She was a racist so take that biotches! So now that Margarita is happy (I love referring to myself in the third person!) I want you to be happy.

So I shall strike up a conversation with all the celebrities burning in Californa, MUAHAHAHA DIE. Kidding... I totally hope their kids are okay though because yeah. If you ask me, the anti-Jesus people got what was coming to them, especially Tom Cruise, yeah especially the dude who lives in a treehouse and bakes cookies. Hehe, I love making fun of celebrities, they all SUCK. Okay not really, some are pretty cool like Kelly Clarkson, she is the SHIZZNIT ya'll. And some other people... Well now we've established that I want you to be happy by talking about myself, I think I actually going to get to the topic.

NOT... I love tha 90s, they are the shizzifulnessit. But really, why do we keep moving forward so fast? You know, the faster you go, the quicker the end comes. People don't understand that, when they are left behind, they are left behind. And you may think I'm cr-yaaazzzahhyyy but I'm not so there. =D.

So, live on and when you die, you go to hell and I don't so ha-haha-hahahahahaha-ha! (haha) Yeah I'm insulting you, are you going to say I hate because you're black even though I cannot predict someone's race? Yeah, you're stupid. Love ya though. Nighty-night.

The Soreness

Oh the pain, how it makes me want to cut myself and kill whoever is using the toilet at the moment! Whatever, my mom just asked me to take down the laundry on a school night at 10:35PM, Ha is she stupid tonight or what? Anyways I've never gotten close to you, like talking one on one myself and not some sentimental preaching that I normally that ends with a moral every time... I gotta work on my life stories. That ceramic noise against each other thing is getting really annoying the next time I hear it I'm gonna kill someone.

I'm watching George Lopez on nickatnight, it's hilarious, and I love the mom on the show, she's so funny. Anyways, TV lately has gotten a bit lame to say the least, I mean come on, CAVEMEN? Kidnation, oh and don't get me started on the Hills. Speaking of the hills, Legally Blonde the Musical came out on MTV for the first time and I recorded and must of watched it like 392482304 times because me and my aunt love that movie so much! Anyways, I've been working on Drama, we're doing Godspell, it's hiliarious to watch if you're not in it.

It's also kinda fun to watch the guy who plays Jesus try to act and watch them kiss, yeah JUDAS and JESUS kiss on the cheek though like that father-son thing. Anyways I've also been roleplay, yeah I know I'm a nerd also, and I've been busy with school work and the PSATs are this saturday. I'll post to let everyone know how I did.

So this is basically like a random post to show you how I really act around people who I feel comfortable spilling my heart out to because you don't really know me well. Unless you're one of my friends and if you are, I thank you for that because I really need your support at times like these. And these times will be described as soon as I figure out what kind of times they really are. Anyways, I'll be signing off because I have to sleep for school tomorrow and then mega crash study for the PSATs on Saturday morning, and then I'll go back to sleep probably. But I'll post as soon as possible, okay?

Love is for the beautiful, carry that with you.

Disappointment

I can't help but feel a little bit saddened when I didn't get what I really wanted. I mean I had the best time of my life but I'm still disappointed, why is that? I mean I danced all night long and yet I left feeling something in my night was missing and I can't get that missing piece yet because someone won't let me. My heart, it won't let me chase after something that will disappoint me in the end and I can't feel it too, but my heart is too weak to deal with this heartache. Lately, inspiration has been lacking because I don't have anything to inspire on, I'm so lost and I can't write and I feel as if though I have no one to live for anymore. But I know that's not what my heart was saying.

It was telling me to go for it, but I'm a chicken and I left the place in pure disappointment. He doesn't like me anyway, right? So what would the use be? I can feel my life draining because my heart is broken, is that even possible? To feel such angst about one thing, I kind of wish things were different but my heart wouldn't let me. And now I can feel the pain that caught up with me, I feel like crying because I have no one and just knowing that he's not the one for me, makes me feel pointless. And I don't want to find another, I want someone that will make me happy. Will he make me happy? Yes, but my friend says he doesn't deserve me, is that true my reader? If he can't see the better good in me, I should drop him like a hot potato? Easy for you to say, I can't just let go of something like that, I'm so attached to him I can't even think straight without him popping into my mind. I can't even vent straight without thinking about him, and just him and me. I feel so alone and my heart is sore and tired of this crap.

And the worse part is that I can't even explain my pain, I can't explain how this feeling my throat is, I can't explain how I want to cry over him and I can't explain my need for him. And that if he died I would show dedication and die alone with him because I love him that much. But he doesn't know and no one knows, and no one but you will know because you have no idea what I'm talking about and you can't make assumptions about something you have no idea about. For all you know I could be talking about one night guy, but I'm not, I could be talking about possibilities guy, but I'm not, I could be talking about far away guy, but you know I'm not. I'm talking about the one boy that can only charm me in such ways that I'd probably do anything he'd ask me to do because I will always fall for his charm. I swoon at the sight of his eyes, and I sigh at the thought of his voice and I feel on a cloud when he is near me. This has to be love, there is nothing else that could make a human being like me know, I feel so trapped and alone. I need him, I love him, but fate won't let me have him. The torture of loving someone so close to the touch yet so far in the heart is pure internal and external pain. I love him and there's nothing I can do about it except accept it.

But I don't want to because that would mean he makes me vulnerable and he is the one that can penetrate my heart in such ways that I'll surely kill myself if he says he does not love me. So this is why I stay away from him, it is because my heart is breaking every time I look his way. I need him, but he doesn't want me, oh what am I to do? Move on? You can't honestly expect me to move on so quickly it takes time but everyday I see him, and fall straight back in love with him every time I look at his eyes. Love, it does exists, but it is hard to find and even harder to keep. Sometimes there are those, like myself, who do not wish to love because of the pain they feel, but they cannot take it out on the lover because they don't know of the pain I feel. So, yes, my feelings are scattered about and I can't think straight anymore, all because of my heart. I must have him or I will die of heart failure but he will not come to the rescue for me because he does not know of the pain I feel. And the angst I deal with everyday, all because of my heart, it betrayed me and I will die because of it.

My heart will not change, ever, because of him. I wish I never knew him, no I don't because then I'd be just as lost right now. Love, such a heart-breaking thing. And I hate it.

At First...

At first I thought this blog was going to go downhill and honestly I have no idea what keeps me writing. Maybe it's because I'm stubborn or maybe it's because I have a soul. Yeah I know your political views are different from mine, but that's your opinion and this is mine. Shouldn't you respect that as I do yours? No, if I violate your rights it is a big scene but if you violate mine, it's nothing. Right? Yes, I am going to rant in your face until your political views match mine.

Not really, actually I don't want to force you into anything, really I don't. I can't make you anything and perhaps my understanding of the human nature is a little bit more than a gift. It has taught me somethings that other people can't seem to find out after years of education and practice. Maybe this is my calling. I don't know why people seem to go down to the road of drugs and unprotected sex. Do you know where that gets you? A crack baby, that's where it gets you, now I know some of you have issues that need to be dealt with better then reading this blog. But if I can't make you get treatment, at least you're reading literature. Kinda, I wouldn't qualify this as Shakespeare worthy, yes I believe Shakespeare is God and should be treated like one. Without him, we wouldn't have the pirating music sites we have today (not saying I use any) but still we wouldn't have movie theatres and so on.

So what is today's subject, yes I am just getting started, today's subject includes how to understand your friend's feelings. Yeah today we get deep into the human mind and understanding exactly why they have issues. Maybe you point out things that they didn't even notice, so how do they do it? How did I do it? I don't know you actually, so I don't really know your friend but I do have them.

One had commitment issues, sound familiar? Another doesn't wanna leave a certain place. And the last one has a problem trusting someone.

Okay the trust one is the easiest because everyone has one of those. She doesn't trust easily because or she's afraid if someone gets close enough to her, they are going to hurt her or be taken away from her quickly. But that could happen, this person is most likely insecure about most things and can tend to be over emotional but not showing it most of the time. Sometimes you forget this person can cry, and she may not know it but you do care, somewhat right? I know guy for guy cariness is weird, but you do care a bit and that's okay if you don't want to admit it. Just them know somehow, like when they get suicidal, that'd be a good time to tell them. Like seriously, you catch them in the act suicidalness. Yes, your friend is EMO, get over because they are still your friend and you take risk at being called emo along with him.

Okay that person doesn't want to leave that certain because they feel at home there, and they will be sad if they move away from it, so that is why they stay so close to it. They want to cherish every moment in that place they can before leaving. This person probably moves around alot and it can affect them in relationships as well.

Last but not least... relationship problems, that can relate to moving around alot, they don't want to get close to someone because they might not see each other ever again. And even though 98% of teenage love is infatuation, there is the occassional unconditional love. And they don't want someone special taken away from them so easily or without notice.

There is more to the mind then the physical eye.

Major Blockage

Lately I've been having some major writer's block and normally when someone has writer's block it's because they are stressed out. I'll admit that I am bit jumpy. New color, do ya like it? Yeah me neither... maybe I'm so stressed out because I am losing too much weight? Or that I couldn't possibly inhale that much water to catch up? Or maybe it's that I want that stupid dress or maybe it's because I have writer's block! I honestly have no idea what it is, maybe it's my mom? And her job? Or maybe it's my love life? Or my non-existent love-life? Or maybe I'm finally being myself with only one person?

Or maybe that she only replies with one face. And I'm truly random, or crazy... NOT! I am so 90s... or I'm just crazy. Lately I've been leaning a little too much on the crazy button, even though I do think I am potentially insane. I'm not, I know I'm not, but sometimes when you blurt out something completely random in the middle of class it works.

I totally just pulled a fast one on you because that never happened. Haha, gotcha there! I love how one site has spell check and yet... myspace fails to have it... when it seems like just yesterday that you could only have eight pictures. Yeah back then, myspace was the shitt and now it sucks. Too many updates and too many people, everyone has a myspace even pets have one!

I'm sorry, but it's getting ridiculous, enough random pictures of signs! Seriously? It's getting on my nerves and I love how businesses have a myspace too, it makes me cry of laughter and then boredom because the businesses suck. Am I being mean or bitter? Or both, or is that redundant? Maybe I'm just crazy. Yeah, blame everything on your illness, don't accept the responibility as your own. Maybe the purpose of writing this blog is more about teaching people to follow their hearts and make the right decision rather then the 'good' decisions. Because the right and good decisions are different, and I'm not gonna explain to you why, you should find that out for yourself.

You should figure out your own life.