Piece of My Life

Okay so last blog entry was a bit emotional for me to write to say the least, it's a lot to process over time and it's not my place to tell the world some one's story personally, but today I am going to tell some one's story of love and me basically getting to say, 'screw it!' not in those words personally because he would just kill me if I used those exact words. So before I got on here I was imagining beating up a girl from my school... yeah me too, butterflies right? So anyways I couldn't sleep so I decided, aha! Blog entry in the middle of the night, and hopefully I'll be tired after some hardcore writing. So today's segment is about love and relationships and how Margarita takes some one's love life and doesn't ruin it, but fixes it for the better, you'll see what I mean in a minute. Okay so for these persons' privacy, I am going to call them CM and CC, CM is the guy that came to me and sadly CC is the girl surprisingly, this guys has balls. Yes, you're welcome CM. Obviously MS is going to be me but I mark it later on anyways, and I'm going to have comments (foot notes!) about the comments that come up in the situation will be in red.

So blah, blah, blah, debate project... and then he opens up.
CM: no, I've been working on my debate project.
hey MARGARITA (he used my real name), if I tell you something, I can trust you not to tell ANYONE

MS (me):Really, Chris, who am I going to tell? My imaginary friend, Albert, though on sundays he does need to gossip, nevermind that... yes you can trust me.

Okay so I had to be sarcastic at that point because it's just so much fun! Okay serious Margarita! AHEM.

CM: Okay, I just had to make sure....
I'm not sure how to say this, but I don't think CC and I are right for each other... I didn't think the age difference would bother me

Yes, age difference, their age difference was four years, you're probably like wow LOSER, no seriously not loser... age is a just a number, even though I don't believe that it seems to fit in here. Moving on...

CM:but more and more it is...
I don't mean to put any pressure on you, but any advice? Should I wait and see if I'm just in a phase, or should I talk to her about this?

BIG NO-NO on asking the EX-girlfriend (yes I dated him) your advice on whether or not you should break up with your girlfriend, truth was when this day came I would seriously SAY YES GOD YES, but now that's not fair and I feel differently. Never ask your bitter ex-girlfriend advice on other girls, NEVER, ALWAYS ask a friend whose a girl that you're not too close enough to, to ask your question. Unless you're me, I don't let personal things get in the way. Yeah shut up, and let's move on to my answer.

MS: Was it different? Or was it the same? Did you feel the same way about me, did you love her the same way? Did you feel the same? Was it stronger or looser? Or was it the same. I don't have all the answers, even though sometimes, the psychological answers seem to come to me. (Go me!) It's hard to say. Honestly you shouldn't be talking to me, you should be talking to her about this. But I already know her reaction, because my heart is feeling it now. You have to tell her, but the real question is, when we broke up, like a few minutes before it, did you feel the same way you do now?

The, dun dun dun, did he feel the same way question. Now if he felt the same way... you know the answer, Margarita had this fellow in a chokehold.

CM: When we broke up, I didn't feel this at all. I feel almost empty, and I feel like such a jackass for doing this to her. I'll tell her, and please pray that she takes it well.

YES! THIS GUY HAS BALLS! As soon as he finds out he has a problem, he came to me and that my friends is a guy that has some major testes. Yeah, so besides talking about my ex-boyfriend having sexual reproductive organs (getting it yet? ;-D), he seriously did the right thing by talking to me and then clearing his head to figure out what to do. And now the almighty famous quote from so many movies!

MS: You were in like with her, though you may say you were in love there's a fine line between liking someone intensly and loving someone to an endless extent. When you thought about her, did you see kids? And minivans, and a house or did you see a few weeks from now, the same? Did you imagine yourself proposing? Did you imagine christmas with her family? What about loosing her, if you lost her, right now, would you feel any different? You can't fall out of love, but you can put it out for a while. When you're in love with someone, you want them to hold you, not kiss you. You want them to love you, return their feelings, and three words is what it takes, so many people throw that word around, you only know you're in love when you love them enough to let them go. You love them enough that to see them happy is enough for you, even when it hurts them too. She may have been seriously in love with her, but you have to do some soul searching yourself, how hard did you fall ever? That's who you're supposed to be with, that's the one, but you have to find them first.
Besides, you may be a jackass, but you're still my asshole. (This is my favorite part!)

CM: I have to say it, you should be a psychologist.

BAM, BOOM, SHAMACK, OWNED, PWNED, PAWNED, BOUGHT, SLAUGHTERED AND SKINNED BIOTCHES! Bask in my amazing glow, someone agrees with me!

CM: Everything you said was right, I was in like with her. I never saw minivans nor kids nor proposing. I broke up with her, and now I'm the worlds biggest jackass; she just thanked me for breaking her heart.

MS: Well, what does she expect? Did she want you to lead her on? That would only make her hurt even more, honestly some girls don't have any brains with relationships. Do you want me to talk to her? Cause I seriously will yell at her.

CM: No, I would feel even worse. This is what she just sent to me:
CC: You always made me happy and you were there for me. I don't want it to be over. I seriously don't want it to be over. I loved you and I still do. It's not all of your fault because it's my fault to for not being able to stay on very late. You were my someone who made me happy. You were my someone who was there for me when it counted. I do want to remain friends with you and I don't think I'd ever want to not talk to you again.

Wow, she even makes me feel AND look like a dick.

CM: I don't want to break her heart, but I don't want to lead her on either. I need to know if I do either if I say this:
I'm glad you still want to talk, because I do too. I just feel empty CC, and I know that's not good for a relationship. You've done nothing wrong and none of it is your fault, I promise you. I don't think I can be in a relationship right now, I'm sorry. No blame resides with you CC, and I once again am sorry for this. I know nothing I can say will make up for this, but if I could I would. I am sorry.
and I'm sorry for asking you this MARGARITA SUNSHINE, but I need to know if I'm unintentionally hurting her more.

Wow, BALLING! Seriously, go up a few passages and look at my balls speech, seriously go do it!

MS: At least you're telling the truth, and I know you don't mean to hurt her, but unintentionally yes, you are. But you can't help that either way, just try to be gentle with her and she can still be friends with you, just give her time. With me it was different somehow, I don't know how but it was different.

Because you were in love with me =D, hah, I'm not telling him THAT directly are you kidding me, no way in hell!

CM: You're right, I don't know what was different either. And I'll give her time, hopefully her and I can come out of this friends like you and I are.

Because we're SPED-ical. And now some grasshopper advice.

MS: I guess, just have the patience.

CM: Yea, because I have such great patience

MS: Yup! You can do it!

CM: Thanks MARGARITA SUNSHINE, I owe you for helping with this.

MS: CM, you owe me your life, so when I need a kidney I'm calling you.

And yes, he seriously does because when he had a concussion and didn't even know I stayed up with him for a looooong time telling him to go to bed, but I guess stubbornness is a good thing here! So basicially I gave up and told him he didn't have to go bed, and the next day he was so drugged up he didn't even remember what he said, and oh my reader, he said somethings... sadly, and luckily for him, all that information is lost. I hope you enjoyed this little segment and don't be shy to send in your love, family, or friend problems, I'm always willing to help!