Creative Juices

Someday you'll find your true love and when you do, you'll figure out what you want to do with you life. You're personal life, not financially, in fact go to college then find love. I think I finally figured out that you have to have patience for things, if not for life, it was certainly for today. Like for the prom or whatever dance is coming up, you should wait a little before deciding that is the perfect dress for you. Or for love maybe you should wait until you're a little bit older, wiser too, because then you'll be ready anything that fate throws your way.

Someday, love will find you, someday you'll be finally awoken to your really life, because right here is just the transition. And the only thing that matters is if you're doing something about it, not just thinking about how you want to do something. Someday, you will be a victorious activist with the people around you and remember one thing, be nice to the weird girl because when she snaps, she'll thank you for the niceness in the end. That's the weird thing about some situations, you don't always know how they are going to end.

Like every time I come to the airport I think about what happens if I die today? I'll get remembered, and that's what I really want, to be thought of and I think that's the best gift to give me. But for other people it might be another thing like they want to have for surprises, but I wouldn't because you can't ever surprise me, because I kinda have a hunch when someone is trying to hide something from me. Like a sixth (or seventh) sense about things, maybe it's just a third eye or maybe I'm just imagining things or I'm really good at reading some one's emotions, or maybe I'm just smarter then you.

Just kidding, being vain it kinda of snobby but being modest won't get you anywhere, but in the middle you'll find yourself. I hope I find myself in this mess of passages, I kinda of can't believe I write some of this sometimes because it doesn't sound like me and then I realize how deep I truly am and then I'm okay with it. But is everyone okay with their selves? Like do they know that they are being jerks all the time, or do they just do it for the attention or don't even realize it? Do potheads smoke pot because they want the attention or want to tell people that they did pot to feel 'cool'? Do emos cut themselves because of their own self-pity or just for the attention?

Attention. That is what everyone wants, I know that is what I want the most. I just need a little bit more then others, why? Because, I'm needy or something like that or it's something else I wish not to discuss, but taking the spotlight off of me and putting on you. Do you know anyone that has a mental disorder or that is really needy? Does it get annoying? Well if you were them then maybe you would understand, but you aren't them so you don't know them as well as you thought you did, so maybe you should listen to them for once instead of hearing yourself talk. But like I said, it helps them to know that they have someone thinking of them in life, because they don't want to be alone, they don't want to feel isolated most of the time, they want to be loved. And because of that need, they go for anything that is thrown at them. But the point is that you don't want that special person of yours being taken away from you because of you. And I know people say not to blame themselves but it really is your fault and you have to accept that.

Teens drive drunk, why? Because it's fun? Tell me, does the guy you hit think being paralyzed if fun? No, he doesn't and it is not really fair that he has to deal with this and you get the easy way out, you die. Your parents can't even yell at you, I know I would yell at my kid, call him a moron and probably stab him a couple times with a fork. Maybe I wouldn't, maybe I'd be so consumed with guilt and pain that I wouldn't even care about the fact you hurt some one's life. No one puts the other people first, it doesn't help them or you, so why do you do it? I'm not saying we're irresponsible, I just think some of us are irresponsible.

Taking away something isn't going to help anyone because we will still do it, one way or another, we will. You will make decision that will effect your life in the long run, so don't regret anything, it was for the better.