I forget... kinda.

Today I was actually going to write something, but I forgot and we all know that I always get off topic. Like this sudden crick in my neck, it's telling me to check on something, but what? Sometimes when you're out to type a great novel or story, you end up with something completely different. And then you want to change the title of the novel or story in the first place because it just doesn't seem to fit. Which is why you shouldn't name it until your novel is done. Why am I giving you advice on writing things? Oh, yeah... haha... I just got it too, okay not really I got waaaay before you, because I'm writing this and - yeah you get it. So what am I going to blab about today?

As you know, I have very crappy friends, but that would ruin my if I took them out, I don't know maybe I just need to know that they'll still love me if I'm not with them. I'm too motherly and insecure... God I need a boyfriend. But ahhh I will not degrade myself to such levels as being desperate and going on low-budget dating sites or newspaper ads. I'll take a more mature approach... persue like I'm desperate. Yeah and pop that pimple thing on my lip... tooth paste anyone, which reminds me I need to brush my teeth. Use Aquafresh because that's what my mother buys. I'm fifteen my dearies, going to be sixteen soon. Okay, okay, maybe in like six months if I'm lucky. So since it is Septemeber 2nd and school is coming up soon, I decided to stress out on Halloween costumes.

Yup, I said it Halloween costumes, I always go trick or treating because it's fun, so what will Margarita be for halloween this year? I have no idea, and honestly I was thinking witch and then decided against it. So I'm stuck with cliche or figure out something quick, I am thinking about asking my ex-boyfriend what to be, but knowing him he would say something sappy and make me want to hug the bastard. (I still love you Chris!) Anyways, my freshman year has been amazing and I hope to have my sophmore year to be incredible and my junior year can be crappy but senior year: Fabulous or something that goes along with spectacular.

I want to go to a country somewhere. Everyone does and why the sudden random country cliche that everyone has? Because I want to see the world which God has created for me. But the world is cruel and fateful and mean. But I know you'll survive with me, because you are strong.

I want to change lives with this blog, I have saved a few people from cutting and commiting suicide and doing other horrible things to theirselves and made them see the light in the world. I want people to see that there is good in everyone and everything, you just have to look for it. And when you find make sure you bring that out in everyone and everything you touch and hear and talk to because you never know when everything is just going to disappear. I may look like the type of person to I don't know, do something that makes you change your view from good to bad, but I'm not. I've been told how great a mother I would be, like I would reproduce, but I could be a different kind of mother or something like that. I've had friends call me on tips to fall asleep because they just watched a scary movie or something I tell them to watch a happy eposide or find some music to listen to and imagine something they like. I thought I could change the world, but now I feel as if I could do anything with the help of my friends.

My love life has become quite confusing, I think I love him and then the other one pops up and I can't stop thinking about him, it's strange. And then the one night person comes and I can't stop thinking about him!

For the record Margarita is a virgin, for now, kidding I will stay a virgin! Until the right one comes along? Until marriage, I mean! Yeah, it's better not to get pregnant when you're not married and you don't want it but you have it anyway. Aborting babies is sad =[... okay anyways!

Back to boy troubles, they are annoying and I want to kick them both. I mean all, oh my gosh! I said both which means there is only TWO I have to deal with which means one of them is gone and out of the picture! YES! But which one? I hate my subconscious... it's annoying and needs to go... hurt itself badly but needs to survive to deal with the pain so I can mock it and laugh at it more. And this is after I am preaching about how there is good in the world. Wow I sound like a hypocrit or just a really bad example for small children everywhere. Maybe older chlidren too, it depends, really it depends.

So boy problems now that there is two it makes it simpler... except for the fact that I don't know which of the three are the two I want! Why is my psyhic mind so annoying and confusing, it's like it doesn't want me to know. And now it's saying that one night guy isn't suppose to be there, but how cna I be so sure? At least I know that I love God, I know I do and he loves me and blah blah blah you all know the rest. I bet it's refreshing to here that I'm human, huh?

Yeaaaaahh... sure...