Addiction

Okay, so I don't wanna seem like a total hypocrite when I say this but, I did become addicted to a substance, luckily I actually went to someone and wasn't a retard and say 'I can stop when I want' and not accept any one's help. Now I did have a hand written blog post, but due to my dropping eyelids (yes dropping) I decided to tell you the general idea.

I was addicted to NyQuil, and still kinda am, right now I'm thinking about how my mouth wants to taste that really bad black licorice... taste.

It basically talks about how I'm in too deep in love with someone, I can't stop thinking about him, blah blah blah, I hate to be insensative to myself but, seriously I should drop it. And now that I'm saying it to myself, I actually feel lost.

I mean it's not like I don't like him anymore, I don't want to let him go, I guess I'm afraid he'll take me with him. But even so, it's not healthy for me to be addicted to someone and I hate to tell you this girls... guys don't think about girls 24/7 and it's not that special one either, they just don't. Maybe at night, they pray for your safety, but in general when they're with their friends, they don't think about girls or getting some, they think about video games, sports, and stuff like that.

But hey, I think about sports, video games, and boys, but yeah. When you fall for someone, try to be their friend first, guys don't like girls being addicted to them, I'm gonna start reading books that study the human mind and stuff like that soon. So I'll know how you feel.

Peace.